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When Will I…

I’ve been languishing with the “When Will I Lord” prayer for months now.  When will I get a fulltime job with benefits again? When will I get out of this debt situation? When will I get out of this awful apartment? When will my son start to show consistent signs of improvement? When? When Lord? WHEN?

With no apparent answers, I became tired, irritable and angry. Each time I pulled into the complex, instead of being grateful for a roof over my head, I’d mumble, “I hate this place.” Instead of getting enjoyment out of my two extremely fun jobs… I felt exhausted. And, when I should have been cheering the goals Manchild is reaching… I impatiently wanted him to be self-sufficient and ready for the world… now.

Over the weekend, I began hearing whispers from God. But, because I’d been so busy grasping; pulling and demanding answers, I’d been missing them. “Rest my child. Things will be better than before. My Grace is sufficient. Settle down and let me protect you while I prepare a new assignment for you.”

Then after Sunday’s powerful sermon from Dr. Jamal Harrison Bryant called “I Missed My Deadline” and this devotional, I felt confirmation on what God was telling me:

SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by Marsha Burns — 2/8/11:

Don’t be afraid to take a break and relax. Your intensity in finding solutions to the problems you face will not even come close to the benefits of quiet rest in My presence and trusting Me to give you the necessary wisdom for breakthrough. This is not a time to tough it out in the strength of your own soul; it is a time to exercise resolute faith in My ability and willingness to bring you through every trial in victory, says the Lord. Only believe!

Psalm 107:28-31 Then they cry out to the LORD in their trouble, and He brings them out of their distresses. He calms the storm, so that its waves are still. Then they are glad because they are quiet; so He guides them to their desired haven. Oh, that men would give thanks to the LORD for His goodness, and for His wonderful works to the children of men!

WOW! Humbled. Faithful. Resting in His Promises. #ThatIsAll



I'm still trying to figure it out too! I'm a child of God that has a lot to say. I've been given a platform on the air to say it but I tend to be a bit lengthy so enter my website. The "confessions" you see on my website are not the gossip kind but rather conversations with artists, authors, speakers and teachers within the faith-based community. Also, my journey has been colorful, rich and sometimes really hard so, I look for answers and respite through writing. My mom wanted me to write a book  and I'm working on that, so bear with me as I fumble my way through. I'm working on balancing my extremely fun work life with my personal life that is filled with challenges these days. I know that God will see me to victory so... welcome to my life. ~Randi

2 thoughts on “When Will I…

  1. well said dear cousin. I applaud you and at the same time, I know how hard it is. Rest in Him and don’t beat yourself up!

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